Sipping hot tea because I am up too early after staying up with the kids to watch the eclipse last night, sitting here thinking about life and homeschooling and faith and all of it, and my mind is rather a jumbled mess. The boys and I take every December off from school, and these past few weeks have truly been a time of really RESTING from the business of homeschooling. Of course, there is another small part of my brain that is whispering “You need to get ready because you are starting school again in two weeks.” Yikes! But I love this break.
While gearing up for Christmas, and not really being in the mood for it, I’m just sort of blah. E’s Grandpa died yesterday morning, and everything is up in the air: Where Christmas will be, what I’m cooking (because I am so not ready), when and if there will be a memorial service, and who is staying with Grandma this week anyway? Then there is school planning to do. Sigh.
We are about 1/3 of the way into our year studying the Middle Ages, and have made a slight detour into another curriculum (which reminds me, I still need to purchase the full year program download). There is a richer book list, and projects to do. I love the Middle Ages, and I want my kids to really experience it. This takes planning. And I am tired. And there are so many other priorities this week it boggles the mind.
As I sat with my sons late last night, talking about Great-Grandpa going to Heaven, it hit me that this week, our priorities have swayed. This year is different than past years. This year, this week, is all about seeking the Lord and about supporting our family. I’m not in the mood for buying presents (which I haven’t finished shopping for) and planning and a big Christmas dinner… there is only One I truly need…
“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one.Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42
And Christmas dinner? Yes, we will have it, together. We will enjoy our time together. Presents will be purchased, and things will come together… God is good, but we aren’t guaranteed tomorrow. The things that need to be done, will be.