I’ve been meaning to write about this for a while but, well I just never seem to get around to it. I’ve said before how I feel awful a lot of the time and how I know that it’s due to the food that I eat. I’m overweight, and that doesn’t help, but even so it’s FOOD that makes me feel the worst. So I’m going to come clean, here and now.
I have a sugar addiction. It’s really, really hard for me to turn down sweets. The most difficult are ice cream and really super high-calorie candy-bar-in-a-cup coffee drinks. These are my downfall by far. But they aren’t the only ones.
For a while now I’ve been thinking that I have an issue is either wheat, dairy, or a combination of the two. When I eat, I often get a gut ache to the left of my navel. It can hurt for up to 2 hours and sometimes it just hurts all day long. If I eat something with wheat or dairy, I get a very gurgly, upset stomach on top of the gut ache. It’s really not fun. Not at all.
About a month ago I decided to cut out wheat, sugar, and dairy from my diet completely, just to see how it goes. I know that these things make me gain weight. I know that these things either cause or contribute to my feeling sick a lot of the time. So I cut them out, for two weeks. I planned on doing it for longer.
I felt GREAT. I did keep track of my calories with my My Fitness Pal app so that I made sure didn’t cut out my needed calories, but otherwise I didn’t limit or change anything. I just didn’t eat any pasta or breads, cheese, milk, ice cream or yogurt, or anything with added sugar in it. I skipped the sugar in my iced tea. I used honey rather than brown sugar in my oatmeal (which I prefer anyway). I did really well and over the course of the two weeks I lost 5 pounds, without really trying to. It just happened.
Now you would think I would be happy with that, see the progress and how much better I felt, and stick with it, right? HA. You don’t know me. We had two weddings two weekends in a row, and my special don’t-eat-crap diet disappeared. Well, mostly. I was still careful about dairy and avoided it for the most part. Except for pizza. It’s hard to not eat pizza when the family is eating pizza.
But then there’s that wheat again. I ate pizza, felt awful, and had this horribly upset stomach for that evening and ALL the next day! And yet…
Each day I make these food choices, and each day I fail to prevent myself from eating what makes me sick. I am pretty sure it’s the dairy, but then again since I often have dairy with wheat (pizza, fettucini, grilled cheese sandwiches) I don’t really know for sure. I need to cut out dairy and wheat again, for sure, and sugar again, because my sweet tooth came back and kicked my butt into the ice cream carton way too many times over the past couple weeks. (There’s that dairy again!) And I always feel like crap after I eat it. And I still have 35 pounds to lose.
So if you think about me, I’d love it if you’d lift me up in prayer because quitting this stuff is HARD. I can replace milk with almond milk, but I have yet to find a replacement for cheddar cheese.