I am pretty sure that my experience at The Relevant Conference this year was quite unlike anyone elses. I haven’t read of anyone else with my similar experience so far. This isn’t to say that I didn’t get a lot of the same things out of it, though. Since I am still having trouble putting together coherent thoughts, I think bullet points are the best I can do right now.
Some things I wished I had done:
Stayed home and gone to Seattle. I know, not what most people would say, but considering my Gramma died over the course of three days, passing away on Friday while I was at the conference, yes I do wish I’d stayed home. We just didn’t know it would happen so fast.
But since I didn’t…
Went to the writing workshops. At least the second and/or third ones. I wanted to (so badly!) but I also wanted to go to the ones I did attend. It was really hard to choose. Now I wish I’d chosen differently. The ones I went to had a lot of the same info I got in sessions last year.
Wrote in more prayer journals. I LOVE that they made those for us, but was bummed that I didn’t get much of a chance to write in them and apparently that was the case for most people. Most of the journals were pretty empty, including mine.
Had more real conversations with people. I really wasn’t (emotionally) able to, and while I was starving for those connections, I only had a few and the others were very brief. There were lots of women on my “want to meet” list who I never did get a chance to meet, or met but never really got to talk to.
When someone said “Hi, I’m __. How are you? It’s good to meet you!” my reply was usually “Hi, I’m fine/doing alright. Nice to meet you too!” and that was it. What my brain was screaming was “I’m NOT FINE! I want to cry and I feel like a big faker right now!” So yeah. More real conversations. Even then I felt like a big whiner. Ugh. SO not the way I wanted my weekend to go.
When I was a little girl, my Gramma would tell me, “If wishes were horses, then beggars would ride.” My wishes didn’t happen either. But that’s not to say I didn’t get anything out of it!
Stay tuned for what I learned at Relevant.
I can’t be the only one. What did you WISH you had done/seen/experienced at The Relevant Conference?