I had a bit of an epiphany on Saturday. My whole life, I have had backward experiences! What I mean is that many of the things that I have experienced happened out of order.

My younger sister died when I was 11, then my Mom when I was 22, then my Grampa when I was 23.

I gave up my virginity, then I grew up and got married.
And divorced. (Should have gone to college instead!)

I had a baby, then got (re)married, and then gave my life to Christ.

So what’s my point here? I’m not sure yet, but it just makes me even more sure that God’s Plan MUST be the best thing for me! Even when I’ve bungled things up, done my own thing or gone my own way, overall His plan is being worked here. My life is so different from what I thought it would be when I was a kid, yet so similar to what I hoped it would be. I’m happily married to the love of my life, I have great kids, I love Jesus with all my heart (okay I never figured on that one, but…), even though it’s not perfect, it’s my life. I love being with my family, the ups and the downs. God has blessed us in so many large and small ways, He never ceases to amaze me.

I’ve grown from being a very selfish person, to one to thinks of others. This doesn’t come naturally to me! Sometimes I have to really THINK before I act/speak. By nature we’re all like that. I’m conscious of it, but that doesn’t make it natural. God can do amazing things when someone is willing to let go and let him take over. I don’t feel that ‘I’ve arrived’, I just feel that I know how I’m going to get there, finally.